DO NOT ENGAGE(sometimes, anyway)

This is a better place to put it.

This got out of hand.

I could pull out my "I'm sorry" mask, but no. I need to get this off my chest.

Forcing peace just gives time for one of the parties to get more mad and hate the other person more. This isn't media where everyone can take a step back & change themselves for the better. If you tell two guys having an argument to stop fighting, and they stop....they're just gonna fight later. And it will probably be worse, since they've had more time for their emotions to fester. You aren't doing anything but delaying the inevitable by stopping a war like that. It might be less messy, but it's not much better than letting the battle play out when all is said and done.

If I call you a piece of shit(which I do anyway, to be fair), & you call me one back, and we begin to argue, & a third party is just, like, "Stop it", has anything actually changed? Have we BOTH come to some form of agreement? Deep down? Because a person can say anything. As they say, it's easy to hide behind a mask. We haven't apologized, either. Although "apologies" are also easy to fake, I'd know. That's besides the point. It's like if a book reached it's climax and just never ended. No resolution. No closure. On one hand, that might be a way to get sales of a sequel book, which I corroborate. On the other hand, the book in this analogy is supposed to be an argument, in which case, the cycle isn't getting a sequel, it's getting a remake.

Maybe you all are able to go along with your day, find peace with in yourselves, and forgive the person you were just crossing swords with. But I can't. I just don't function that way. Saying "let's just stop" isn't doing anything. It's just creating an interim. And you aren't placing bets during it, you aren't buying up snacks for the next round, you(I'd assume) want it to end. But it doesn't work that way. Both sides need to see sense.

This got long, and weird, I'm clearly venting, what I'm trying to say is, please. This isn't helping me. It's great for you all who can overcome differences, but not for me. I'm only going further and further over the edge. I don't really know what the point of saying all this is? You can't really help me----you guys live in Europe, and shit? Yeah. Not really in a position to help me. So please, whenever I fall to pieces and rampage, incomplete turmoil, please , ignore me, subconciously at least. Don't engage. Don't say anything. Wait out the storm. Eventually, I'll fall over the cliff & be gone. And then there won't be any trouble.

Or I'll save myself. Either way, all will be well.
But please. Until then, just ignore me when I vent.


This has been a long time coming. I've done my fair share of lying, while I've been here. Even that apology? For the anti----I don't know what it's called, even, that too, was fake. I'm very unstable. If you didn't know by now, welp, now you know. So please, let me do my thing. This isn't an excuse to let me be rude. If I do go WAY too far, stop me. Especially since my definition of too far is vastly different(and way worse) than yours probably is. But when it's obvious that something is not right with me, in an undisputably bad way, don't engage.
Locking topic.

Okay wtf why are people following this, it's meant to be a one and done thing, what's with all the reactions, huh?

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